There is no in between with me. Either I am focused and eating clean or I'm binging...consuming way more than any one person should in a day's time. I didn't track my food or calories yesterday but there were pop tarts, trail mix, rice, processed vegetarian food, a diet Dr. Pepper (classic, huh?) and four Nature Valley Peanut, Almond and Dark Chocolate protein bars involved...out of control much? No wonder I've gone from 141 pounds to 158.6 in less than a month.
What I hate most about the above before and after photo is that it reminds me that as a woman with an unhealthy relationship with food, I am incredibly exposed. A person with an addiction to drugs, alcohol, porn, etc. can hide their sickness from others. But people like me who are constantly losing and gaining weight reveal a very personal and painful battle without ever speaking a word. Moreover, most recovering addicts can avoid the thing they are addicted to. But I can't rid my home of food. I need it to survive. Sadly, after 42 years I still haven't found a balance. However, I know that I will. I'm determine to get on the right track and Jillian Michaels' Ripped in 30 is my first step.
I didn't get around to starting the DVD until after 9pm last night. The only time I have available to do these workouts will be after I put my son to bed. Level 1 Day 1 went pretty good. I was sweating and exhausted afterwards, but not overly so. Ripped in 30 is a 24 minute workout that is based on a 3-2-1 interval system: 3 minutes of strength, 2 minutes of cardio and 1 minute of abs. Surprisingly I'm not very soar after day 1 so I'm looking forward to doing it all again tonight. So stay tuned!
Here are my weight and measurement information prior to starting week 1:
Current Weight
158.6
Goal Weight
135
Bust
37 inches
Waist
33 inches
Hips
42 inches
Forearm
12 1/2 inches
Wrist
6 1/2 inches
Thigh
24 inches
BMI
27.22
Body Fat %
42.32%
I've got some work to do. Wish me luck!
Always,
Blaque
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